Sunday, July 10, 2005

Silence

I finished Hubert's sock:

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I'm working on #2. If I keep up at this rate, I won't be giving away many knitted gifts next Christmas.

In other news, today was knitting meetup day, which happened at the Second Cup on Monkland. My tiredness and depressiveness makes it difficult for me to attend any sort of gathering or to do anything at all, really, but the last time that happened to me I isolated myself for months and I'm trying really hard not to let that happen again. But then I realize just how boring of a person I must seem. So I'm not sure what's best, really. Do I keep on going to keep me sane or do I not go so I don't subject other people to my presence, because I do realize that I'm no fun to be around these days?

I can be such a drama queen in online journals. I think I just need to take a little break. Especially since I just admitted on my blog, which some of the Montreal knitters read, that I'm really a sociophobic fruitcake. What a winner.

All that being said, seeing Veronik's blue shawl (the one that she gave to Margaret) at the meeting, as well as Molly Anne and Anny's shawls-in-progress made me want to make one too. So I'll just add that to my list of things to make sometime. Later.

10 comments:

Anny said...

I'm sorry to hear that you haven't feeling up to par lately. I know how it feels and how hard it can be to get out of the house and avoid isolation.

I for one was happy to see you again and assure you that you were in no way boring or unpleasant to be around :) It's perfectly fine to be quieter and not in the best of moods. You don't HAVE to put on a show or entertain anyone, your presence is more than enough.

IMO, when you're feeling like this, it's best to keep getting out and seeing people. Isolating yourself makes depressive feelings more intense and fuels the isolation more then often turns into a long cycle that is harder to break free from.

Hoping that you get out of your funky soon :)

Anny said...

The last sentence was supposed to read:

Hoping that you get out of your funky mood soon :)

Take care

Lee Ann said...

I'm very sorry I missed you, Caroline...next time I will have to get there early. Which is kind of unheard of for me, but...

I agree with Anny: if you're in a funk, get yourself out there. Believe me, we've all been in that emotional trap before, and there isn't a soul in the group who would want you to stay away just because you're feeling crappy.

I wasn't feeling my best today, either, and I've been in a real emotional hole for weeks, but I went for a little while anyway, and I'm glad I did. I hope I'll see you next time, and may we both feel better soon. Even if we don't, we can still stitch and bitch together. Hang in there :-)

Lee Ann said...

Whoops, Blogger didn't let me link me...I wasn't trying to be unreachable ;-)

big hug, and again, hang in there. It may not feel like it right now, but this state of mind will not last forever. Meanwhile, we're here for you.

Maryellen said...

Go out. Don't worry what others think. Don't isolate yourself.

caramelknits said...

You went out to Meetup and you were inspired to knit more. That HAS to be good! :) If anything were going to help, going out to be around people who care about you is the way to go. Though we're not part of the same meetup group, know that all of us in the blogging community are here for you too.

Mona strickt said...

Caroline, dear, don't worry about not talking if you are fine with it! I often think people don't have a good time when they are quiet, maybe that is because I tend to talk a lot.

As Anny and Lee Ann said, please keep coming to meetings, we would miss you if you didn't! Not to mention all the things - knitted and gossip wise - you would miss out on... ;-)

Molly Ann said...

Hey, I think more of us have been there than you know. Don't stay home and think about it, its MUCH better to get out and be around people, no matter how much you
feel like they're judging you, or that you're a freak. Cause we aren't, and you aren't.

In my experience, the drugs actually work, side-effects notwithstanding. But finding a good therapist is also essential. If you'd like some more information from my personal experience, e-mail me--I'd be happy to talk to you about it.

Molly Ann

Renee - a mom & knitter - natch said...

Hugs & more hugs. Depression is fixable and getting out and being around other people is a key to the fix. And who better to be around then other knitters. Hang in.

deawn said...

A thousand pardons for taking so long to post this message to you...

I get what you were going thru at our Sunday knitting thing, because believe it or not, I've been there, too. Yes--I who can't seem to shut up, used to be a genuine social phobic! No really, it's true. We have quite a lot in common, in lots of ways you'd never dream--we've got to talk!!

Anny, Mona, Lee Ann, and the others are right; it was great just having you there. Don't feel like you must get on stage unless the spirit moves you! :-)

Please accept my apologies if my flamboyance was a bit overwhelming. I actually forgot to ask about you big trip to Paris, so be sure to remind me about that, should I forget again next time.

Meanwhile, hope you're feeling better soon, and I hope to see you at the next knitting thing!